Current Mood: Disappointed

Well after blowing my diet and excercise for the last month,  I stepped on the scale and was thourougly disgusted.  I’m now up to 193lbs. which is even worse than when I started last time.  I’ve been stressing out about my daughter and eating really late at night because I haven’t been sleeping good at all during this whole thing.  I know the Lord doesn’t want me to feel unhealthy and tired all the time and it sure doesn’t help me feel good about myself at all that’s for sure so I’ve been praying and asking the Lord to please help me to stick with this no matter what is going on around me.  I’ve never really had to be on a diet before because I’ve always just eaten what I wanted and stayed at 130lbs at 5′8″. Being vegan vegetarians we eat pretty healthy all ready.  Course now in the last 3 years since I turned 40,  my weight has been creeping up on me. ugh. (more…)